Wednesday, January 12, 2011

"Mommy, I love you"....

The sweetest words any Mommy will ever hear and that will melt your heart forever.... My son had his sweet little arms around my neck today when he quietly said those words in my ear. Shivers went down my arms, and the little hairs on the back of my neck stood up. I hope he always feels like that, and I know that I never want to forget that sweet little voice, and those sweet little hands. I am almost tearing up now, but I know that one day his little voice will be deeper and his little arms; not so little anymore. Hopefully he will remember the days of cuddling all day in our pj's watching cartoons, and eating ice cream for lunch just because we want to, or when he closes his eyes, maybe he will remember the smell of my shampoo or my perfume, and have this overwhelming calm.... I love my kids so much, I just wish that there were the perfect words to tell them so they would never doubt it, or never forget it. When we grow up, things tend to not stay so innocent and young, and I know that my boys will become young men one day, and that I will have to "cut the apron strings" so to say, but will they remember the little things that I remember? Will they even be important to them? Wondering what their fondest memories will be, and hoping for all eternity that it was me.... loving them....

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

A New Year, A New Me.....

Well, if things go as I have planned, this year will be spectacular. I am trying to focus on making myself a better person in general, in turn making myself a better Mommy. Sometimes it seems to me that I stress out over everything, depend too much on my over scheduling, and just dig my heels in when it comes to compromise.
I will spend more time trying to do the everyday things (such as chores) in the evenings after the kids are in bed, as to not take that precious time away from them. I am going to try to appreciate all of the wonderful small things my husband does to make my life even the slightest bit easier, and remember to thank him for those things. I will try to motivate myself enough everyday to make sure I get out of my pj's and to also get my kids out of theirs.
Play dates, park trips, beach days, and more time visiting with family are a few more things I need to focus on. And lastly, definitely my temper, and the way I talk to people, especially the ones that I care the most about. I want to take more time and listen when my kids call my name, and not just say "hold on baby" or "ask your Daddy", or "give me a minute". When they speak, they should be heard. I WILL be the Mommy that makes her kids feel like the most important person on the planet, I will make sure they feel like they can tell me anything and everything. I will make sure they know without a shadow of a doubt, that I love them each more than anything in the entire world, and would do anything for them. Sounds like a big plan, but I am one hard headed, determined soul, and I believe that I and my family are worth the effort.