Today is my first day of blogging, and here in my little world, it has rained virtually non-stop for 3 days. (well, i think it's 3... Hell it seems more like 20)and I sometimes envy my husband. I love staying home being a full time mommy to my boys, but sometimes, I would LOVE to be able to get out of the house for a few hours to go to work... even if only for the adult conversations... Here is a bit of background about my crazy but amazingly wonderful life...
I am married to the LOVE OF MY LIFE!! We have been together almost 9 years, and through rough and wonderful, through thick and thin, happy and sad... Here we are, and I wouldn't change a single minute of it! He makes my sun rise and my clock tick, and I would be a complete and udder mess without him, just ask my Mom! LOL!
Anyhow, my oldest son is almost 11 and he spends most of his time with his Dad and paternal grandparents. I really hate that I miss seeing him everyday, miss hugging him before school, and miss seeing his big brown eyes taking in all the wonders of this crazy world, but I guess that in the long run, it is what is right for him. I wish I knew him inside and out like I do with my other 2 boys. I don't know his favorite color or his favorite song, but I do know that he loves me and his step dad and brothers, just not how to show us. He adores singing out loud with the radio, riding 4wheelers in the mud, and going hunting. Gosh, I miss him...
My middle son is almost 4 and is the absolute icing on my cake! He makes me laugh, cry, and wonder what in the hell I ever did with all of my time before he was brought into this world. A blond haired boy with big blue eyes and an imagination that is wilder than any untamed mammal on this entire Earth... The smarts of a kid twice his age and the innocence of an angel is what I see from him everyday. He loves without boundaries, accepts what is said, and reaches for the moon in everything he does, and he truly amazes me over and over again. When he grows up he wants to be an Engineer of a steam engine and a Policeman. He hugs me and tells me everyday how much he loves me and that is better than any present of diamonds or gold that could ever be given. And the thing is, I love him to the depths of my soul.
My youngest son is still just a tiny thing, 6 months to be exact. He favors me in all of his facial features, but his personality is already mocking that of his brother and father; Lord help me. He is a happy and ambitious little guy, he was crawling before he was 5 months, and wants to follow every single move that his brother makes. Before I was a Mom, I didn't have the nudging urge to have a baby like some women do, but when I became a Mommy, I had no idea what that involved, or the feelings that it would spark inside me. I couldn't imagine being anything else... A Mommy... The best job title in the world, and it's mine.... All mine...
I am waiting and watching to see what my boys will be when they grow up, but the only thing I truly want them to be is happy, healthy, and loved.
